BAD.

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I have decided to write about you.
I have found writing to be a valuable way of venting my emotions,  and so,  today,  I write this.
I was going to say it all started on...
But I realized how cliché that was,  and I'd rather be different,  original like I feel. 
So I'll start this way. 
I think you are bad for me. 
Plain and simple. 
It's the truth,
Because I need control,  I earned it,  I worked my entire life for it and I hate you for messing with that. 
How dare you think you can come around and crumble walls?
I want to see you though,
Talk to you,
I miss you,
Oh but I will never say it. 
I will avoid you though it hurts me to. 
The truth is,
I am scared. 
I can't afford to go back there,
Go back to being powerless,
I don't want to do no wrong.
But recently I think about you a lot,
I wonder how you're holding up,
How life is from your point of view,
Oh how I wonder what you think about me.
Now I just don't know what to do,
Do I keep suppressing these thoughts hoping they would go away,  or do I risk it all?
How foolish of me. 
To even consider risking it all. 
No my darling,
I have made my choice,
I love you but not that much,
I love Him more. 

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